I have no words.
WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN
Autoboyography is a beautifully written coming-of-age book that explores identity and what it means to love. It’s told by Tanner, a high school senior, who despite coming out as bisexual to his parents, has returned back into the closet after moving from progressive Palo Alto, California to Mormon Provo, Utah.
When he takes an English Seminar with the insistence of his best friend, Autumn, he meets Sebastian Brother, the TA of the course and also a devout Mormon. But it doesn’t take long before Tanner develops feelings for him.
This is the first time in a long while since I read a whole book in one sitting, so that itself says something ;-; . Tanner’s personality and voice immediately drew me in and the amount of chemistry between Tanner and Sebastian felt very authentic as well as tender. There was a strange but enthralling captivation of seeing the dynamic of the two boys who come from such different environments – one whose family decorates the house with pride and constantly gives reminders of their acceptance, and another whose family is just as bright and bubbly, but holds the subject as a forbidden taboo.
“I don’t actually care if you break my heart, Sebastian. I went into this knowing it could happen and I gave it to you anyway. But I don’t want you to break your own. You have so much space in your heart for your church, but does it have space for you?”
Their moments together were sometimes quite passionate and often adorable, so it was painful to see Sebastian fighting with what he wants for his family as well as what he wants for himself, and to realize that not everyone has the privilege and freedom that Tanner has.
It was an eye-opening and beautiful read. I smiled. I laughed. I cried. AHHH I DON”T EVEN KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS BOOK. Give it a read!
Rating: 5 stars